all good things...

...take time and patience. Often times I get struck with an idea of something I could be doing that would make me happy and satisfied. A project or endeavor that requires a certain process of execution and with that process comes a series of events that will not always get me what I desire at day's end but instead may take weeks or even months to accomplish. Through this time the process can seem mundane and a waste of time and energy because it's not always easy to keep the big picture in sight. I find it easy to lose patience and get frustrated by this. It might be that life is often in a state of go, go ,go, and it feels like it's moving so fast that parts of it are passing me by while I am trying to put in time and energy towards a goal. I get distracted by other things that are going on around me and by things that other's are doing. Then, before I know what happened, the idea or goal is lost and I've moved on to another endeavor thinking, what ever happened to what I was doing two months ago. Spontaneity can be a beautiful thing, but the ability to focus is just as important to me.

Ideas must be nurtured in the way that one might nurture an existing entity that has been taken under the wing. Proper attention and awareness is necessary for nourishment and growth, much like a plant. The growing process can be very slow going much of the time but that does not allow the nurturing to stop. I am very good at becoming bored, planting a bunch of seeds all at once, and then later find myself overwhelmed because too many things are going on at once and I am at a loss of the energy necessary to keep everything in a state of forward motion. Most of the time that is when certain things are given up and that never feels good.

I find it very important that breathing is always happening. If it's important for me, then I must allow it to be important for every one and everything else, no matter how slow it seems to be going on.