...people is a difficult place to be sometimes. Sitting with these emotions and memories with inklings to just get up and go to them. Realizations that memories are not tangible places that are possible to get back to. So just sitting with them. Wanting to see how people have changed since the last time. Moving around so much in my life I feel like home is spread out so vastly because there are so many people that I care about in so many different places. Some say that it's just part of growing up, but I am at times stubborn to let go. Life sure is busy and people live it, that's for sure. To put it all on hold would be very difficult for a whole lot of us, but it would be really nice to be able to see everyone that I miss right now. Selfish because it would be extra nice if everyone just came to me. When I first got back from the orient I was planning on just taking a big trip to all the places where people I care about are. Three months later I am still in the same spot that the plane from India took me to. Life started happening and then it picked up the pace a bit. I am playing music in one project, auditioning for another either today or tomorrow, and just got offered a teaching job that actually pays really well in the cities. First meeting is tomorrow at four. None of this is negative in any way at all. I am very happy to be involved with everything that is going on right now and feel very lucky. But it's hard to adjust to commitments after spending so long without them. Especially when I want to pick up and go to all the people I love and care for that are not in the twin cities area. It sure is a blessing that life is long and filled with so many moments. That is the key element to be aware of. Patience. Not to be confused with apathy. Just the awareness and ability to take it easy, slow, and relaxed.
Calling those in my heart right now and telling them how much they mean to me is how this is gonna go down. Gotta go
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